I was Bill Clinton!
...and why I didn't care, but you should
By Mark Vorzimmer
Reflecting on Bill Clinton's predicament the other day, it occurred to
me, that for the better part of my life, I was Bill Clinton. Sure, I wasn't
the President, but in one key respect, I was identical. ...or in one key
dis-respect. What's at the heart of Bill Clinton's behavior toward women is
disrespect...disrespect towards women. And although a close analysis of
Bill Clinton's behavior belies an inherent disrespect for many different and
"diverse" groups, it is primarily his actions towards women that allow me to
dissect, from a 'first-person' viewpoint, his actions. A viewpoint fresh
from the experiences of a man that behaved identically, albeit throughout a
much earlier period in his life.
I lied about women. I lied to my girlfriend; "Where were you last
night?" My Mother; "What have you been up to?" My attractive female
colleagues at work; "Hello..." Women in grocery stores; "You're not
actually eatin' that stuff are you?"
I knew it reached ridiculous proportions one night when-at home asleep
with my girlfriend of several years-my other girlfriend came over at two
o'clock in the morning, and when I told her I was, "entertaining", asked me
"Who [is] the slut?" For years I thought the mistake was keeping the
"strange" around too long.
It wasn't that I just lied about women. I lied to women. I lied to
men-usually husbands and boyfriends. And, as we all know, you don't just
lie about something or to someone, you depart from the moorings of truth-you
drop a bolder in the calm sea of reality.
Does Bill Clinton have what it takes to chew his own leg off?
One of the problems liars are faced with is the immediate necessity to
lie again; to cover the lie just told. Lies are like cancerous cells whose
only effective countermeasure-when not in a complicient host-leaves the
patient sick, if not physically altered. A fox will chew its' own leg off
to get out of a trap, but it must be duly noted-the fox wants to be free of
the trap. For a liar to get out of the trap of lies there has got to be a
great motivation to do so. Bill Clinton's lies have got him where he is
today. He has no great motivation to change anything...it would be athwart
to his psychic being.
A guy I work with said he was instructing his thirteen-year-old
daughter to respond to men as though they were sexual predators. I think
it's a smart idea-if he cares about her. He was a lot like me when he was
younger-a predator. A smart, relatively good looking, successful, likeable
guy, but a predator none-the-less.
Is Bill Clinton a sexual predator? Doctor Paul Fick, in his book The
Dysfunctional President; Inside the Mind of Bill Clinton, likens Clinton's
behavior to "...an individual compulsively engaged in drug activity...", and
adds that, "...it is easier to identify the willingness of a compulsive drug
user to engage in illicit activity to satisfy his need, since most drugs are
illegal. The drug user will engage compulsively in behavior detrimental to
personal relationships and business dealings..." Consider the risk
associated with Clinton's engagement of Lewinsky in matters such as those
now a part of public record.
Between Gennifer and Monica
Sexual behavior prior to marriage, or in Clinton's case, the
presidency, would be, as many argue, a matter between him and the First
Lady, but it could still prove evidence of pathology. "With relative ease,
one can predict, from past behavior, that Clinton's sexual behavior will
continue to produce problems for his presidency." A prophetic diagnosis
Fink made it in 1994-between Gennifer and Monica (as it were).
Why should the American people care about all this? Because once you
break with the truth, your reasoning is no longer dependent on reality. It
is as if you are trading in a currency not linked to a 'gold' standard of
truth. A standard of truth implies an ongoing struggle-for it is easier to
lie than to tell the truth, as anyone who has faced the anxiety of having to
give someone some bad news knows. My lies about women lead to a break with
the truth inside, and in turn, made it easier to lie to anyone else about
anything-any time. For a time I gave up the struggle for the truth.
Although I regained my footing in the years since then, it was a painful
process that at one point cost me friends, health, money and a lot of time.
You see, my problem was not pathological-it was a reparably weaned-in,
emotional attribute engendered by the circumstances surrounding a parental
divorce. Although Bill Clinton's problem may have its genesis is some of
the same issues, at his age it has surely baked into a pathology that would
take nothing short of a exorcise to correct. And, notwithstanding his photo
ops traipsing out of church on Sunday's, there's no way he's holding tight
to religious teachings.
A Baby Ruth galaxy
Lying to someone is tantamount to saying, "I'm smarter than you." You
know what the truth is and you are depriving someone else of this reality.
It may not have any great consequences, but you are none-the-less robbing
someone of a true version of fact. One rarely lies to anyone they think
smarter than they are because they have the fundamental belief that the
other person either knows the truth, or that they have some divine
propensity to learn the truth. My lying to women was based on the theory
that they would not learn the truth. Or that if they did, I could easily
keep them bamboozled. I thought I was smarter than all of them. In fact, I
thought I was smarter than everyone I lied to-or I wouldn't have lied to
On one of the evening talk shows' Man on the Street interviews, the
question was asked, "What galaxy do we live in?" Although they screen
answers for the most amusing, one hastens to guess how much is really
necessary. For those that couldn't say, a quick hint was proffered, "It's
also the name of a candy bar..." As if a light bulb just went on, one
respondent slapped his forehead and answered, "The Baby Ruth!"
Bill Clinton thinks we're living in a galaxy of Baby Ruth people. How
else would he continue to treat the American people like idiots? Why else
would he treat women as he does? There is an inherent disrespect for his
There is no way one can endure in a struggle with virtue when you are
constantly being pulled down by the weight of an overwhelming personal
problem. Lying is easy. It's even easier the more you do it, and that's
why I didn't care when I was lying to all those women. I was basically
getting what I wanted (or all I wanted, as phased during those years). But
sooner or later you end up wanting someone that properly recognizes the
they're smart enough, there's no lying your way past it. Not for the night;
not for the weekend; not for the next couple years. That's when one starts
to care-that's when one learns. You end up caring about someone beside
yourself. You are then magically endowed with the motivation to change.
Why should you care? ...because Bill Clinton doesn't.
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